Sitting and other vices
A couple of years ago I wrote a post about how I felt I was drastically overweight and feeling bad as a result.
Last year I got kind of sick and as a result couldn’t eat. It seems that not eating is a mighty fine way of losing weight. I wouldn’t recommend it though. I have lost in the region of 13 kilos since November 2018. To begin with it wasn’t deliberate but I am keen to stay this way. I feel healthier than I have done in a very long time, both mentally and physically and I attribute this to eating healthily (not in excess), not drinking alcohol, staying away from caffeine, and Bikram Yoga.
Some might argue that I have moved my attention from one form of attachment (eating and drinking) to another (not eating and drinking). They might have something of a point but I feel good about this path, so I’m sticking to it.
In all fairness I have become a little obsessed with the yoga. If I don’t go then I get pretty uptight. So I probably should address that at some point.
Another thing that I have introduced in the last few months is meditation. Specifically, Zen Buddhist meditation. I sit in zazen for 30 minutes every day. Sometimes, (like today actually) it is a chore that has to be completed. Other days it is the thing that gives me the strength and mental energy to get through the day. I don’t feel like I am yet very good at it. However, that doesn’t matter. It provides me with a space at the moment where I can see that my mind is untidy (at best). I can look at the thoughts in my head as they occur. I know that I should not dwell on them, this is the hard part. I have learned that I should not be attached to the thoughts in my head. As if they are not mine. I certainly can’t control them and nor should I try. I just have to watch and in a manner of speaking learn.
The Zen practice that I have begun doesn’t have an end point. I have no specific goal to achieve. However, I know that sitting and practicing Zen is right for me at this point in my life.
This weekend I am visiting Zen River Temple for the first time.